I've waiting her back....at the estimated time that she might leave & reach. That guy stay in Toa Payoh & just near. She leave around 30mins after me.... what should I do now? Pretend that I dunno anything & continue love her?
Yes... I should do that. After all.. I not little kids that crying for mummy. Cause I understand... there's no way a problem can be resolve by quarreling... scolding...It will be more sad.. if I do so. Cos.. I am really love her.
I've waiting beside the control station & started to watch the sms delivery reports... It's really a marvelous feature that I neglete so long that taught by her. After 30mins... she've receive my sms and tell me her location. She've reached Yio Chu Kang... I called her & tell her I am worried about her, missed her. She just reply an "Em... I am so tired'.
The suddenly turn over... morale down man. It's just different... toward different guy. One of my fren got say me stupid...."U help her save money... spend everything for her. She use the money she save & spend for other guy...idiot". Man... I am so fate up.
After 30mins she reached.... saw me..& go back to sianz face.
" I am tired ... " She said..."Let's just back home.. ok?"..
"I know u r tired....feeling better?" I said..
"Ok bah...".... she replied... then I din continue with anything...I dunno what should I say... afraid I just push out everything.
"I knew u will not be alone de... I am glad that u feeling better...(Massage her neck)"......Man... I am such a nerd.
She was hugging my arm & sleep... act that she was tired. That I knew... she just wanna cover up the time in the bus...When the bus reach her station. She said.."Today... u direct go back ok?"...I replied " Can u spend 5 more minutes with me? I will just follow u back safety... then I will walk back"..
We walk back...slowly... it's such a silent night, still feeling cold while I remember the scene she & her laughting. She can spend 4 hours talking to him but just few repeating words for me...like " I am tired"...
"How u feel? Is it really boring with me already? I hope.. I can accompany...whenever you sad... I will be better..u know?"
She replied " Hope so bah... maybe chatting too long really boring ler... tired to talk to u. I am alone all the while... "
I really sad that ... what she said &.lied ....so confidently.
Before I leave.. asked again..."I knew u r not alone... right?"
She give me a hug & leave...open the door & said.. "As u like bah...88"...
It's so cold... when walking alone back to my place. Although just around 15minutes walk everyday...It's freezing...& my heart was needled...& slicing of piece by piece...
Tears leak from my eyes...just can't stop it.
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i am in the same situation as you.. just that i am in your girl's position..i sound bad right? two-timing...
do you feel like chatting on this issue? i don't mind exchanging email...
I wish to exchange email with u... please let me know how u feel.
Can contact me via gmail -> cklittleman@gmail.com (With the IM feature)
... Hope you get back to me soon.
Thank you.
so stress...
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